May 21, 2011

I Have a Purpose!

I forgot about the peace and joy that come hand in hand with knowing Christ Jesus, with receiving His gift of eternal life, and having Him rule as Savior and Maker of all things, including my future that is in His hands. I forgot about depending on Him when the bumps in the road make me lose control, about giving any sorrow I feel, any burdens I cannot carry any more. Instead, I found myself depending on things of this world to make me happy, including running, eating healthy wholesome foods, and even blogging. I would often find myself depressed after dinner, 'cause I had over-eaten, or I'd feel empty inside on a Saturday morning, since a foot injury prevented me from running a race I had registered for weeks prior. I have even found that on most days of the week I dread blogging, I feel like my words are empty and the meals are repetitive, with no true meaning or purpose.

I had forgotten why I was here, why I have life, why I have a reason to wake up every morning, why I work where I work, live where I live, know who I know: it's all so I can please Christ, tell others about Him, bring Him glory, honor and praise. That's my purpose here on earth, and I have such a huge reason for living!

My life is not any more amazing or any less awful if I do or don't break a 2 hour half marathon, or a 4 hour full marathon, if I skip a day of blogging or blog without missing a day for three years, if I don't over eat at all for 7 days straight, find out I'm only 10% body fat and pure muscle, or if I eat an extra banana with almond butter ever night. My joy should not be based off of any of those things, or anything related to them. My joy is found in my King and God, the Creator of all living things, the God who sent His only Son to die for my sins so that I might live eternally with Him once my time on earth is over. And.. I'm so incredibly happy that this is true.

So, May 21, 2011: here's to my first day of truly living.

[snack: banana sammie with almond butter, crunchy cereal nuggets, cinnamon and raisins]
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[exercise: 3 mile jog at Green Lake, lunges, push ups, crazy things, abs in the grass as I stared at the trees and felt close to speechless]

[refuel: banana, hemp protein pumpkin seed muffin, orange, h2o]

[sketch: a few friends from my journal]
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[lunch: quinoa veggie sushi with edamame]
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[ladies cook off at my church]
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ready... set... make the kitchen a huge mess!

[my dish: grilled veggie hummus tart]
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[a beautiful time with wonderful ladies!]

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yes, i tried every single one of the desserts. i just forgot to take a photo, 'cause all my mind was set on was quickly picking a favorite (orange sponge cake) and then going back for salad seconds!

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winners!

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my absolute favorite!

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my second absolute favorite

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my fav main dish, if I had to choose! enchiladas with chicken and a whole lot of rad flavor (sans 8lbs of cheese, thank you very much!)

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oh orange cake, you made my heart sing tonight. definitely killed all the chocolate bombs!

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not a winner, but felt like one. incredible veggie hummus tarts. will post recipe soon!


[dessert]
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ah. frozen fruit, coconut water, and toppings.

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The LORD is my shepherd, I lack nothing.
He makes me lie down in green pastures,
He leads me beside quiet waters,
He refreshes my soul.
He guides me along the right paths
for his name’s sake.
Even though I walk
through the darkest valley,
I will fear no evil,

for You are with me;

Your rod and Your staff,
they comfort me.
Psalm 23:1-4

2 comments:

  1. Your doodles are so cool! I'm so excited to see you take such a wonderful step towards recovery, it's beautiful to hear your adoration for Christ. :) "My joy is found in my King and God" <--Amen! Psalm 23 really helped me helped me get over my ed thoughts, too, as well as Colossians 3:2 :)

    Hope you have a wonderful day and enjoy living!!

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  2. AMEN sista!! I love EVERYTHING you've said here!! Living every moment through Him is what it's all about! :D

    And YUM your tart sounds AMAZING and I can't wait for the recipe!!

    Have an amazing Sunday girl!

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